Stop holding yourself to crazy standards. There is no right way to express yourself, just let go. Hold the brush anyway you want just get the paint on the paper. Hell just go ahead and paint with your face!
I am a traditionally trained artist/designer I try to do some form of art every day. I love just letting go and creating weird creatures and random doodles in my sketch book. I collect anything that inspires me. Most of the art posted here is original works by me with a few of my favorite pieces from other artists mixed in. I am also Vegan and I love to eat beautiful food!